Guys, well I never know, is it because of monday, or is it because of throat irritation I have, I am very down, tight lipped all day long. My heart thumping fast, blood pressure raising high, and head aching a lot.  Well, I have been thinking lot of things today. My future seems very very complex with hell lot of quirks and turns.

I always thought life with turns will be like rollercost ride, exciting. I love challenges, to beat the circumstances, to emerge as winner. But today, I think that I'll just go off the track and never return back. I am thinking for the first time, that I can never be successful. Very pessimistic indeed, and also very far away from my attitude. But, not able to find any reason to sudden dip in my confidence and my attitude.

My friends say, this face do not suit you, cheer up, everything will be in place, you can do that easily. But, nothing sparks interest in me. I am very lazy, sleepy today. Never got up from my seat all day long, spent seeing the bloody monitor all through out. Just now, wanting to come out of this, seeking help from you guys, who read my blogs, comment them regularly. 

Well, none can tell me how my future would be, where will I be, what will I be doing, but that's what worries me a lot. I want something which even I don't know. I am confused, guys, I am totally down!! 

Sorry for writing this piece of very negative article here, but, I have nothing to write. When I started, I found no reason to share my mood with you guys, but well if I don't put this out somewhere, I will loose my temper, I may just scream out or even cry out at the end of the day. Well, I always wonder why should not boys be emotional, why should they be like rocks, no crying, , just absorb all the pressure. If that is so, why am I not able to do that. 

Girls have some one, some shoulder of father, brother, husband, boy friend to take their pressure on to their shoulders. But, why don't boys have that luxury?? :(? I am confused, bored and very down today..!!!!!! :(